An alternate time table....

Any of you who know me know that, for the most part, my blog is a very "visual" account of the comings and goings of the M House. This post will divert from tradition slightly. 

I have had a lot on my mind lately and, since no one has yet invented a camera that can take pictures of thoughts, I am forced to use a medium in which I am not as comfortable or versed... WORDS... so if you want to know what goes on in this crazy cabeza of mine read on and please bear with me.... If you are not up to reading a novel instead of the usual M House picture book, no offense taken.... I too prefer pictures. :) And I promise that the next post will be brimming with them as usual! 

Now where to start.....

About a year ago, Dave and I started thinking about increasing our diaper budget to included both sizes 5 and newborn. However... things in our adoption plan have NOT gone off without a hitch shall we say. We figured by now we would have another little bum to change, but since we do not.... this is where the "alternative time table" comes into play.

We started working with an adoption agency in the beginning of September 2008. Well then our house was broken into and we had to put adoption on the back burner. Then the holidays and so when January came along we were raring to get our next adoption story started. Well, have you heard the saying that if it is meant to be happen it will all fall into place? Well I am hear to tell you that I disagree! Nothing has fallen into place on this adoption journey.  Does that mean that we are not "meant" to have another little one join our family? Last night... as Dave laid his hands on my head to give me a blessing of comfort the answer to this  bothersome question finally came. 

I felt the lords love and strength buoy me up. Dave's words were not the resounding "you are doing the right thing and it will all work out" that I was hoping to hear.... however... what he actually said brought even more comfort than I could have imagined. He said that the lord works in mysterious ways. That he is mindful of me and my rightous desires to bring more children into our home. 

Aw the overwhelming peace of knowing that my Heavenly Father and my Saviour are aware of little old me and love me enough to care about my desires.  

Though I don't know what is in store for us.... I feel more certain now than ever that there are more very special spirits to enter our home. How... where... why? These are answers (while they would be nice to have) that are not essential to my happiness. I trust the lord. I love him. I have faith in him... and because of this, I will not worry. I place my time table at his feet and surrender my will to his. And plea for him to make me what I can be.