In Exile....

I went to go to sleep tonight and this is what I found. Good thing I turned on the hall light before plopping into bed. I had officially been exciled from my very comfortable CALIFORNIA KING sized bed. Yes ladies, I did say California King and there still isn't any room for me. But on closer inspection this is what I saw...
It melted my heart and is the reason I broke out the camera at 12:30 am and risked waking my sleeping princes. This one moment makes all the others worth it! One in a million!

So my question of the night is.... Where's a girl supposed to sleep?

Water, Family, Friends, Pizza and Saying Goodbye...

Today Angel, Greg, Scotty, Jason and Peanut #3 left for Missouri. About 6 months ago Greg was accepted to med school in Kirksville. While we are soooo excited for and proud of them as they start this long-awaited chapter in their lives, we are sad to see them go. Keanon is now officially an only child and Dave and I are hundreds of miles away from two of our closest friends. However, thanks to my husband's generosity( and pity, I think).... Keanon and I are headed east the end of August. Only 30 days Ang.... I Can't Wait!

5-4-3-2-1 ! Family Vay-K to Knotty Pine

5- Sun-filled Days

4- Men and 4 Women

3- lil munchkins

2- dogs

1- Family

Man I love my Family!

Just for Kicks and Giggles!

From the Creek at Temple Fork! Thanks Tannon for the rockin' tunes!

Old Ephraim, The Bubble King, and Never say Never!

This last weekend we went up to Temple Fork in Logan Canyon with Keanon's Birth Family and had a blast. We rode horses, 4-wheelers and played in the creek. True Family Fun!!! Here are a few pics from our adventure!

One Friday Dave took me on a 4-wheeler ride up to old Ephraim's grave.

Then when we got back we were so dusty we decided to take a dip in the creek. Well, some of Katie's cousins chalenged Dave to a Bubble war. There was this part of the creek where a little water fall created "bubbles". Well, 35 minutes later Dave and Braden were the only ones left in the water. They called a truce and Braden won.

Boy has Dave come a long way!

Finally, Never say Never. Many of you have heard me say that i will never let my kids on 4-wheelers cuz they are to dangerous.... well, as I said before, NEVER say never!!!

This is Me Coming Out and Being Honest...

No this is not a tag where you get to see my house in it's true disarray. This is me facing the facts... being honest with myself and being willing to wear my heart on my sleeve. Most of you know that Dave and I were lucky enough to be chosen by one of gods amazing "angels" to adopt and raise Keanon 2 and 1/2 years ago. Katie is Keanon's Birth Mother and I adore her. We have a bond that has just astounded me but no, this is not what me "coming out " (Pardon the cliche) is about. Forgive my rambling.. this is a difficult subject for me. Any of you who know me have heard me say that I am not interested in having more kids.... specifically right now. This is where the honesty comes in..... I LIED!!!! Not on purpose, not to you, but to myself. I figured if I said we were done having kids the hurt and emptiness would go away. I also think that I was putting up a wall to protect myself. Adoption is AMAZING but DIFFICULT business. The waiting, the feeling there is something wrong with you, that you are not good enough or even that all the other waiting couples are more deserving. What it really comes down to is that I want nothing more than to be a Mom. Yes I am lucky to have 2 "angel" kids and 1 "Miracle" Child ( thanks Kate!!!!) And if that was all the lord saw fit to give us I would learn to deal with his help but I feel like our family is not finished yet. There is a hole or shall I say several holes that become very apparent when I least expect it. So what does this all mean? Well, the conclusion that we have come to is that our family isn't complete yet but unlike most "normal" families, we don't know exactly how to complete it. I feel that the path is pitch black and light less. Faith is believe in things hoped for but unseen so to that end I guess Faith is our answer. Trust in the lords plan and the missing pieces in our family portrait will fall into place. So for those of you who wonder what I do at 2 am when I can't sleep, now you know. This is just me being honest with myself. Thanks for indulging a slightly discouraged, worn around the edges, Mother! (Adoptive and Biological)
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Our "Adoption"

Journey,"Miracle" child, and

the "Angel" who made sure he found us.

PS. So what do you think? Is it time to start the adoption process again?

The Knights that say "NEE"

Anyone ever seen Monty Python and the Holy Grail?

This is how I keep Keanon occupied while Dave searches for sprinkler parts at Home Depot!

What do you think, the next "big thing" donned by the elite at Churchill Downs?

A True Classic!!!

YOU BELONG IN 1952!!!

You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

PS. Thanks Erika.... this was a fun one.

Tubes... FINALLY!!!!!

Pre-Op

Post-Op

Home

He was a little trouper and was lucky to have Dr. Long as his anesthesiologist. (We had lost of experience with her while Amada was At PCMC and just LOVE her!) Dr. Muntz did a great job and Uncle Greg was able to be there while Keanon was being put under. He siad that Keanon didn't even try to push the mask off, but did keep trying to put his binki back in his mouth. The Binki... Our next big hurdle!!!

PS. You should have seen our little Mr. Ride off with Dr. Long in the wagon. As she took him to the OR and we headed down the other hall to the waiting room he just turned to us and said "Bye" while waving. Then further down the hall I could hear him say "ride"! Thank Heavens for wagons. Someone was a Freakin' Genius!